Perspectives from recovering addicts, artists and creatives in recovery, and the family and friends who love the addict but hate the disease.

“I Hate How Much I Love You” is a new documentary film currently being produced by Dave. The first set of interviews took place in Los Angeles in February and more are scheduled for June.

We are actively seeking people interested in supporting this film financially.

If you have connections to advocacy groups, support groups, community resources, we especially need your help.

We also need people interested in helping with production in different parts of the country and possibly Canada. If you’re interested in becoming a supporter of the film, click here!

———————— OPEN CALL FOR STORIES ————————

Are you a creative? Are you an artist, a painter, dancer, sculptor, filmmaker, writer, musician? Do you or someone you know deal with the disease of addiction? Have you lost someone to addiction? Are you a therapist in the field of addiction and recovery? Do you use art or creative endeavors to cope with and heal from addiction or help others to do the same? If so, then we want to hear your story!

So that we can see if your story is a good fit, take a few minutes to give some brief answers to these question in your e-mail:

1. Are you an addict either in recovery or currently using?
2. What’s the general idea of your story?
3. How did you handled it?
4. How did it effect you and does it continue to effect you?
5. Do you use art or creativity to help deal with the effects of addiction in your life?
6. Did it inspire any creative works?
7. Are you familiar with 12 step programs?

 

My Manifesto

I’m a recovering addict…I have been for a long time…my life is manageable but far from perfect…I still deal with addiction in many forms every day…I’m effected by it every day…it’s not something that’s reserved for an hour here, an hour there when I attend a meeting…it’s not a tidy little package that I can address when I feel I “need to”…it’s ever present.

My family is larger than my bloodlines and it encompasses people who struggle and suffer from the disease. Deaths still happen in my life from ODs even though I haven’t used in over a decade and, addiction is present in my blood family as well.

My ideas and attitudes have undergone an active change. 12 steps work for me, but if it keeps someone alive, I can no longer deny the viability of programs that involve Medically Assisted Treatment or Drug Replacement Therapies.

I have no real answers. I have experience, strength, and hope and I’m learning more about the addiction/recovery landscape. I believe that art and love are healing and transformative. I want to present a film about this, about the relationships and the essence of humanity that relies on human connection and expression, the pain and struggles people have, loss and suffering by people who are not addicts but have to deal with them in their life, as well as the hope and growth that awakens and arises from recovery.

We all are effected, and at some point you just can’t look the other way.